I’ve grown to like nostalgia more

Tradition is beautiful as art and is another viewpoint… so diversity kind of if you like that word.

This was also the time where I started to debate myself on if I should be anti-art. My problem with art was that I would binge watch a show, get depressive when it finished, get over losing the show, then usually after I found new hobbies to fill the time in I would then find another show. Then another much more emotional “argument” i had against art was that I used to be an ~artist~ and the reason people viewed me as gifted is because I was an artist but now… I aint exactly one anymore. (Which for some reason I still have the gifted kid label which is confusing me)

And ALSO at the time I started to stop treating my supposed discovery about art as a brand new thing that I need my attention towards, I started to get addicted/dependent on music for my entertainment. Which music was revealing the hidden depressive beliefs and thoughts I had deep down so… ya kno I got more depressive… so ya kno got more anti-art. And that overlistening to music made me scared that I would lose the ability to never be bored with my mind which I’ve always had.

So my art philosophy at this time was always experience your life through your life and not through art, the only beuaty you should see is in sociality, nature, and words, the only art thing at all that should be used is non-fiction literature and maybe some poetry, visual art should only ever be used in flags, logos, architecture, blueprint and scientific model things of course, and maybe some animation explainer type videos with animation just being an aid for understanding. The only entertainment should be existing.

But thennnn I started thinking about what people sould talk about when they don’t want to talk about serious or taboo things. Social life can be drama filled, all types of philosophy is scary and boring to some, just general personal life can be boring, I dont think gossip should exist so dont talk about celebrity lives at all,.. you can always talk about TV, music, even paintings and drawings if who your talking to is an artist themself… especially if it’s an art piece or art technique you both know at all……… 

So then I thought about sports for probably the first time in my entire life. Sports are entertainment but also it is very um not arty at all and its ehhhh very existence focused without being thoughtful. I did see some beauty in sports because I like.. factions. It’s a good way to socialize of course. But why socializing good? I thought it was because it made us have new viewpoints which yeah but like… who else has ever thought of it like… Do I even view it like that when I socialize? I could say to that “wellll we SHOULD start viewing it like that”, but now I think that socializing is just good alone. Socializing helps socializing. It also helps you to rest which rest helps you work and most people can’t rest with work I think so that makes “pointless” socializing good anddddd… here’s where I start to think very close to art termz… well socializing is an art or craft… even if unconscious. Which this craft or art can also be more of a skill than an art… but idk I mightve realized that I was mixing so many words… not adding enough nuance but having so many details………….

And that sports thought also somehow transformed into… “what if?”. What art is best at is showing you a different world or replicating this world. So what ifffff like we consumed art to make sure we do or dont want a certain future to worked towards.

Annnnnd I kind of forgot this was about nostalgia… So… idk I really don’t know how to tie this all together cus I wrote a bunch of this yesterday and im out of the loop with writing now u get the gist 😭 

now I’m more nuanced but vague… and nostalgia is coolio when ya don’t get dependent on it being your joy 👍

By the way if you also have that same art binge problem I used to have I would reccomend watching much more movies than shows and watching shows just about 1 episode a day which if you cant/“cant” do then I dont really think art is ur problem ehhhhh ur current character and ur life r the problem.

And how dare you for reading this far.