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Hey loves!
In January I'm turning 8teen and I'm scared asf.
Idk what to do, I'm still not certain about my future. Sometimes I want to be a psychologist, sometimes a criminologist, scientist, mathematician, historian, actress, singer, artist...
University registration has already begun, and I still don’t know where my next chapter is supposed to take me. It's like everyone else already has a map and I'm still lost.
I'm still in 2021.
And the worst part is that everyone keeps saying things like “you’ll know when the time comes,” as if some divine sign is going to fall from the sky and suddenly everything will make sense. But growing up feels more like walking down a dim hallway with a half-dead flashlight.
Sometimes the mystery is exciting; other times it just feels like I’m one wrong step away from messing everything up. I hate that it looks like everyone else already has a plan while I’m here trying to decode a future that refuses to show itself. I’m stuck between too many versions of who I could become. And that’s why it hurts: because I don’t know which path is mine yet.
Honestly, it doesn’t even feel poetic at this point. It’s just stress. Real, ugly stress. My parents keeps acting like I have “so much time,” but somehow the deadlines are already here breathing down my neck. I’m not having a soft, reflective coming-of-age moment — I’m literally trying not to spiral while choosing a future I don’t even feel ready for.
I’m scared I’ll pick wrong. I’m scared I’ll waste my time. I’m scared I’ll disappoint myself. And it sucks watching people walk around with their plans while I’m here googling careers like my life depends on it. Because lwk… it does.
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Joey
Hey! I can help you narrow those options a bit. If you go to university for an undecided major you can take courses in maths, sciences, arts, etc and explore your options for a good year. It may set you back a little and cost a good bit depending on how you do it but it’s worth considering. Another option that would be easier on those would be to commit to a group of options. Arts, singing, etc are one. Science math psych are another. History criminology etc are the rest. They are grouped as arts, STEM, and language arts in unis. You can take a semester or year of courses exploring one of those groups it might not even set you back. I would also suggest going with whatever you are most talented in and or passionate about. Talent and passion are the biggest substitutes for effort and fatigue there are.
Overall, it seems like you should go to a university. Dont worry too much about which one, as long as they offer what you need year one. You can always transfer. Picking a group of interests can save you money and put off the big decision for now. Good luck!
Thank you, honestly. I appreciate the advice. It makes the whole thing sound way more manageable than it feels inside my head.. I know exploring different areas first is a valid option, and maybe I should slow down and pick a group instead of a whole life path. It’s just that, from where I’m standing, everything feels urgent and heavy, like I’m supposed to already know who I am by now.
And yeah, talent and passion matter a lot, but half the time I’m not even sure which version of myself is the "real" one, so I guess I’m trying to figure it out without completely melting down in the process.
Still, your message does make it a bit less terrifying, so thanks for that. I’ll try to breathe and not spontaneously combust while choosing my future :)
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