cosmetology school story time

 I've been going to cosmo school for about a semester and is it worth it?

the answer is I don't really know, it has its ups and downs and I have had some situations with some of the other students there. I'm just writing to rant a little bit about how it's been going so far. also let me say this I have been very lucky because the school I'm going into I don't have to pay for learning which is great so I'm not going into debt if I do this out of high school.

first of all I'm somewhat introverted and I don't really engaging in small talk, like most people probably, anyway this was my first time being in a public school setting so I wasn't really sure how it would be. of course you've got the clique of girls that formed in a nanosecond that will talk about you behind your back. I prefer not to really form a relationship with them because I don't really see a point and I have made friends with some really great people. but of course I want to be on good terms with everyone and I don't see a point with being mean back to them.

in the first weeks of school, obviously they need to go over all the rules like parking rules, bullying, and classroom stuff. pretty boring right?? and the teachers mention a program that's supposed to look good on the resume. boom I'm interested anything to make my little resume better. so what do I do????  I work hard to do all I need to do to qualify for this program and I get in. yay...... keep in mind it's sort of a student body.

I get the job as a reporter which is not the position I signed up for but that's fine. since I'm a first year I was thinking that the second years would lead us through what to do. the teachers said that this program would give you connections and help build communication. we have the first student meeting and I am honestly appalled AND annoyed at the amount of nonexistent teamwork between the first years and the second years.

fast forward a couple weeks, I make the choice to leave after another meeting of basically nothing happening and listening to the second years SINGING THEIR ABCs ... what the heck???? I only asked one question during the whole meeting which is 'what is my job as the reporter'. then I come in the next day after the meeting, I brought in socks for a fundraiser the only person to bring socks was me, and my teacher hits me with a "I need to talk to you". 

then she proceeds to tell me that I was being rude and mean in the meeting. da heck??? mind you I only asked one question.... and I was smiling throughout the whole meeting because I have a habit of smiling when I'm annoyed but it doesn't show that I am though. first of all she just flat out says that like what???? I told my mom about this and she said that she should have handled it a lot better cause why would she straight up tell me that? I asked all these questions like who and why.... no answer. we have another meeting that day where a teacher comes in and tries to help us figure out what to do and separate the jobs so no one is doing all the work. Ok great that makes sense because all the second year president complains about is doing all the work herself, which could easily be fixed if she actually tried to communicate with the first years about what to do. During the meeting the teacher says if anyone wants to leave to just let her know. as soon as I went home, I talk about it with my parents and decided to email her to let her know I will be leaving.

a couple days later she want to talk about me leaving ok great. keep in mind this isn't the same teacher who told me that someone was talking behind my back.... so her and I step out of the classroom to talk and she asked me why I wanted to leave. ill try to remember everything I said since this happened a couple months ago.

"this isn't for me, I would rather be in the classroom than be out there in a meeting because I feel like nothing is being accomplished. I would rather be learning something that will help me in my career . I was told that someone complained about me and I felt that it was bullying and that was the last straw. I just hope that no one will have been bullied like me."

that's mostly it, I don't really remember all that I said but I felt that I was rather composed and handling it well.

fast forward a month or two, I make the decision to talk to one of my friends who is in the program about why I left, because she one of my closest friends and I though I could confide in her. I tell her about what happened with me being bullied out of it and she was just shocked. she told me that the second years where the ones being mean and rude to me, which they were. and said that people told my teacher that they were, but I guess my teacher turned it around to me. WHAT THE HECK???? honestly I wish that this could be brought up again to my teacher to show that I was innocent but its fine.

I also want to say that I have a 'I don't care' mentality so this wasn't really that hard for me handle. I will say though that this made me cry which is very hard to do but I got over it. I'm glad I left and I don't have to deal with it anymore which is great. anyways if you stayed till the end THANK YOU and sorry if there is any grammar errors.

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