a lil depressing

hey guys, if yorue going through a rough time right now i wouldnt read this if i were you. its nothing too terrible but itll just be me ranting. ive honestly been super depressed and lonely recently and wondering if anyone else is feeling the same? i put in all this effort to try and make friends yet nobody seems to like me. i dont think  my best friend even likes me. well, shes my best friend but i dont think im her best friend. my therapist told me not to put all my eggs into one basket but i dont really have much of a choice. all i do is i sit at home and rot in my bed all day. i ask my best friend to hang out all the time but she never can. i understand being busy but then i hear her talk about how she has nothing to do certain days or she just spends all of her time at her boyfriends house. if she would tell me she just doesnt want to hang out with me, i wouldnt be upset. i know im boring and not interesting to talk to but it just hurts when she openly basically lies to me. half the time when i get on snap after she tells me shes busy shes just at her boyfriends house, which hurts. i get you love him but i really wish youd at least try to see me every once in a while. one time we made plans for a friday and she finally agreed to see me. i found out i had physical therapy for my back that day which only takes about 45 minutes. i told her we may not be able to hangout if she doesnt want to wait and she told me "oh good because i was wanting to hangout with a friend i havent seen in ages." i understand that but like.. you havent see me in ages either. and youre so eager to hang out with someone other than me when i had to cancel one time. i dont want to be selfish or come off as rude but im just really hurt. i wish she liked me. and it also sucks because ill go onto social media and see people hang out all the time. especially people from my school. i just want friends to hangout with me and notice me when im not around. im tired of spending every single day sitting at home doing nothing while everyone else has boyfriends and best friends and people they can hang out with and lean on. i just want to be someones person. im so desperate for people to notice me that i cling way too fast. i just want it to go right. im really scared that one day im going to end up alone. i dont understand what about me is so unlikable. it probably doesnt help that i dress in sweatpants and hoodies all the time, but can you blame me? i yearn for someone to love me unconditionally. i want to hold someones hand, have my forehead kissed and just be told how much they love me. i want reassurance. i want to be seen. i think i should stop rambling before i get sappy. i think im just really lonely lol