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i really want to live my life. i want to go out and have fun, go to concerts, chat up a friend at a cafe. but i cant. i dont have anyone that shares my interests nor someone i can bond with. i see friends doing all sorts of things together, while i sit in my room, as someone who cant even leave the house. i dont have any friends. im not even joking, i have no one that i text outside of school, or in general. there are so many things i want to do, but i dont have anyone to do it with. its been years, but i still cant make friends. h
ow do people keep in touch so well? i dont know how they do it. i always see people living my dream, and i cant help but feel lonely, because i know i'll never experience something like that.
there's this movie i want to watch in theatres, but why even bother? i can't even work up the courage to go outside, let alone make friends. i just want to be like everyone else my age, going out to parties and staying up past midnight. but guess what? friday nights never mean anything to me because i always somehow end up in my room like aways, watching my youth slip away.
maybe i don't have friends because let face it; who would want someone as lame as me for a friend? is it because im awkward when it comes to putting my thoughts into words? or because im so unfunny? man, i wish i wasn't so stiff when it comes talking. maybe then would people like me more. am i just destined to be alone?
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Reo / Maalik !!
I can relate to this a lot dwdw ;; I don't go outside much either nor have many friends , like maybe two , but talk 2 only 1 of 'em outside of school . I think the best way I've coped with it is just crying it out and trying to focus on myself ^^ I don't think your loneliness should hold you back from these activities tho !! ERRMM I suggest maybe talking freely abt ur interests freely on here ? Mayb u could meet others who share the same sentiment as u do !! (Also hetalia pfp is so goated omgg)
ever since i posted this blog, i've been trying to get outside more and 'participate in life',,,,,, its not really working out right nw but i'll keep trying!!!!! p.s. you know ball!!!
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alex
I can honestly totally relate to this. I think as ive gotten older though ive gotten better at being ok with doing things myself? ive found joy in just being alone and going out to do something. my social anxiety used to really hold me back from that but after working on it for years its getting better. life gets better! I really love watching solo vlogs and video diaries on TikTok, look into those! @dr.pepper3r_v4mpire on TikTok has a cool page and I love her vids!