There is love that doesn’t have a place to rest

Every time I think I’m ready to move on, she keeps reminding me why I won’t.

Maybe I just have the wrong people as company, but I feel like the only person that has made me feel as heard and understood as I do is her. 

And I understand that I won’t feel this way forever, but for now it is unfathomable that someone will hear my words and hear them in the way she did. 

We’re still friends, and I have told her that I still do have feelings for her, but I am a bit emotionally avoidant, and when she brought it up a week later I ignored her and when asked by a mutual friend I said that I didn’t care anymore. :/

I think I’m just gonna keep being friends with her and plot on her or something.