IM SO CONFUSED OMG.

So, I like T and Goob, but I don't know if I actually do??

T is really sweet, not problematic, funny, but I just don't know how to talk to him, or get close to him, without feeling awkward/like I'm butting in. I don't think he likes me a lot, but I dunno. I kinda really liked him for a day or two, and now it's dying down.

Goob is so cute, and I've liked him since last year. I was head over heels, and now I'm a bit less. But I at least want to be friends with him, like, able to hug him or pat his head. My friend (hg) is fully in love with him, more than me, I believe. I think we're kinda in the same situation. I really don't mind if she gets him; I'll never dislike her for that! Love is love.

I don't think either likes me very much, but they still talk to me a little. Probably to be polite. Maybe I should just stick to being a lovergirl. I just really fucking YEARN for a boyfriend. Some of my friends already have one, and it seems like heaven. WHY CAN'T I HAVE THAT UGHHH.

Hg is way better at talking to guys; I'm horrible at it. I just wonder if anybody like likes me

Desperate for love, 

Ellie

Edit: Goob told me to shut the fuck up today. Literally shoot me. Whether he was joking or not, I'm a stupidly sensitive person, and I cried 💔

Looks like I'll stick to watching from afar.