talking about family again

They are nice most time my dad says shit I don't like but when one parent is home it nice because I feel like I can rest if that makes sense, like I don't have to pretend to comfortable. I feel bad saying that but its the truth when I have to send time with both of they its awkward. I feel like I cant breathe normal.Dont get me wrong I love my family , its just I don't have a the best relationship with my dad. not after I came out as trans in middle school. I get uncomfortable and leave. Im glad I work almost every day. I have a good relationship with my mom. Im still glad that she travel for her job tho. I think I might just be ungratefull.