I wish I could still write

Like look at my older blogz. I might be more entertaining now because Im a schizo anndddd I do send ~secret messages~ when I talk directly to peops (peops=impersonal plural of persons) because I kinda feel like I know a bit of ~wisdom~ they needa hear (not necessarily believe smtimes jst hear) but thats because I KNOW them so I tell that stuff through jokes and also my non-sensical sayings I smhow make my gibberish hav meaning sometimes idk y. but when I try to do that with formal writing I guess I THINK Ill just sound preachy like a christian saying frik u ur goina the place where ya get lotsa tickles but I havent realllllllllllllllyyyyyy tried to make my liquid meaning of words into formal writin and-or / and/or thought-giving, poetry-ed, careful writin. Also I like observing humans theyre interesting to predict, the ones that dont talk about emotions are the best ones to watch. Um i havent yapped in a while I like yapping in one thing but the things im thinkin bout rn are not exactly related to writing/this… I love conlanging. I lost the hobby alil bit but ever since i started grammer class uh kind of again Ive been liking learning the terms for linguistic concepts/linguistic term and I never rly did that before I was just makin that lanngggg learnin that IPAAAAAA actually Im startina get bored of/with myself. 2 (NOT 3 SHUSH (JK “NEVER SHUSH” IS MY MOTO JST *MAYBE SOMETIMES* SHUSH ABOUT SOME THINGS) things before I metaphorically die: my drug is my mind and what Im on is  my floor, and how dare you for reading this far