diary entry - music and nostalgia

Admission:

sometimes I play Christian rock and alternative from the early 2000s to be reminded of what seem like simpler times for a kid. Plus, they’re still a jam. 

But I’ve eaten from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, and things are not simple anymore. I’ve learned a lot of facts about the Bible, and things about life. I can’t have the simple faith of a child. I don’t believe in much anymore, except for the values of a good faith. 

Besides, the nostalgia isn’t entirely true. Sometimes, I listened to the music for escape from tough feelings, not because things were actually simpler. haha

I think perhaps I am part of the way that I am due to being in trouble often, grounded to my room and having to find comfirt in music or imagination in things. 

Sometimes I think, as a not totally sheltered kid, the Christian music scene was part of my connection to the outside world. Even Though it was faith driven and acceptable enough to my parents

In summary the loss that took place was not a real loss