high thoughts november 26

10:04 i took 15mg of edibles

go downstairs and smoke half my last joint

i feel 2 nervous smoking at home so heres the plan: i have a bit of breakfast adn go to the dispo to buy my next batch of edibles, smoke the rest of it while im there

11:01 yesss i can feel it kicking in

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/8ma2NhiW5Xk hes actually good

11:09 YESSSS ITS KICKING INNN

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5Rjy6n5CJ0 holy peak (bdum tssh)

11:20 oh waow im watching clips of Mr. Fox from adventure time and omgggg he sounds so much like CYrus!!

11:37 went to the washroom and my eyes r getting a big red now, i saw it in th emirror

12:05 ok i tried sucking it up to go outa nd buy edibles. first i flipped a coin-- if its heads, i have to go out. the frst flip of Tails caused a tiny spark of worry, worry that i would not get the option i wanted.. the only reason i would think of such a thing is in response to the oppenent flipping againt me, and that i want my outcome to win. therefore, i must want to go out.

i forego the rest of the coinflips and get up, and find a wave of buyers remorse wash over me. i get dressed, ven tell me parents i was going out (i bike out sometimes so this isnt out of the ordinary), and pace by teh front door.

i want to go out,,,, but if i wanted to go out, would i not already be outside?

i then realize i did not truly want to go out. i think back to my thought at the initial coin flip, and wonderr--'if my mind really had changed midway thru this deal, why on earth did i want to flipheads in the first place, and not flip tails?

i cockedm y head to the side and thought about it, teh anger dissipating frofm the outburst as i took on my form in the prsentk, having abandoned the anger just moments ahgo in the past. i thought. and thought. and tought,.

and realized there was no exlpainging. human brains are just odd, adn that is why we have mystery crime fiction.

12:11

looking at my list, i see that i wrote "write', 'draw', and 'listen 2 music. i will do that now.

guhhh why does it feel like im pissing myself?? IM NOT PISSING MYSXELF!!!!

12:14 PEAK is a rlly  cool game. ik it might be friendslop but the whol gnre is FUN, not SLOP. the agme itself is well designed, good smoothness and control,s and is beautifuol. so thats y i think its cool.

12:21 bro i wanna fuckin eat smthn

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7C_MNksx_ZY why am i getting smiling friends clips with self0inserts, and only when im high

12;40 im eatin ga sandwih :3 it is good but ifeel like taking a nap

1;13 ive jus been on youtube fr a bit. I JUST SAW THE NEW DANNY GONZALESZ VID YAYYY\

1:23 i feel so nostalgic and younngg...

1:26 oh noooo my bro i home, he just came downstairs

!;30i amm hungry agannnnn i will also try to ge tmy earphhones bc i want to listen to music but my bro i shere

1:50 oh noooo am i voming down already? aaaa
i'll get my earphones stat and do some wrting!

1:52 got my earphones

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5kA3azJghfXFrN1pr2XGTo

2;02 writing now! imiss my friends tho btu the music can fill in that gap like it always has

2:04 ouuui should have bene listerning 2 music the whole time this is so oooo goood

2:06 omg there was a cat on the fence outside! a lithe brown spotted tabby i am eating an egg

2:15

"Their love affair ends tragically one night when, during an argument in which Sid announces his plans to stop using heroin and return to England to restart his life, a suicidal Nancy begs him to kill her. She attacks him and they fight in a drug-induced haze, leading to him stabbing her, although whether it was intentional is left to interpretation. They fall asleep and later Nancy awakes and stumbles into the bathroom, where she collapses and dies, calling Sid for help. Sid is bailed out temporarily by his mother, who is also a heroin addict. After Sid wanders to a restaurant, some street kids convince him to dance with them. A taxi appears and picks Sid up, and he believes he finds Nancy alive in the back seat. The two embrace as the cab drives off.

A postscript says that Vicious died of a heroin overdose, and lastly reads: "R.I.P. Nancy and Sid."" said div sivious loosk kind of like cyrus waowww and i cld see him doing this kidn of thing if stuff wer a bit different 4 him

my nose is runny :(

2:17

Unfaithful Servantb y The Band is so beautiful

2:48 mostly nvober now

2;52 i actually bought sum cookie mix, iwill amke it now

2;55 you need vanilla extract for them and i dont have that... luckily ew have leftover sushi!

3:01 ok im sobernow

kind of wish i did more, but i did write and listen to music so thats awesome!