i feel so spoiled and an idiot (also a rant on indian societal pressure)

my mother keeps telling me that i was what changed their life as it was. because here in india the stupid societal pressure is crazy. my mother and father were not viewed as people in the eyes of my relatives from my father's side specifically. a child (Especially a SON) was apparently very important for them. i am forever greatfull for the fufillments that my parents do but damm is india a toxic country. i think thats why instagram is also very toxic because majority is filled with indians (im talking bout the comments because no way these toxic people have time to make reels). tho i am so spoiled with so many facilities at my disposal i still dont do my work correctly and i never do homework on time and im really just plain lazy, i forget small things also here and there and the big stupidest one out of all them is that im not social to my relatives from my dad's side, because indians are supposed to talkative always or something. like what the hell do i talk about with this person i met 7 seconds ago and had met them once when i was like 3 oh yeah i totally remember them. i feel like this is just rant about indian families. NO WONDER INDIANS LEAVE TO ABROAD THIS IS LITERALL HELLLLL. i feel like a idiot as i have not been doing good in subjects and not getting good grades. (b is very bad btw, i mean family pressure u wont get it or u would idk>), getting B's and like 2 A's but its only 2 A's no one is talk about them sadly. on top of that this stupid thing where you have to competetive bout your exams and have to write this exam that millions of people write and you HAVE to get in, if you dont ur a failure???? WHAT? like its not something U WILL NEEEED to live a life but right now i need to write these tests as my family's situation the societal pressure will just strengthen if i dont like man i hate my life man. but i dont wanna die so dont be afraid of that because i do care so much about my parents my mother my father. i think taking my mother and father to somewhere far from these people as the father's side relatives literally live next door's and they can live in peace. you know the funnier thing, there is another son of my grandfather who i dont know what you call in english and dont wanna bother searching up (we call that mama in telugu so im just use that). he is pretty good at studies, he got really good marks in 10th(this stupid exam determines u at the start), they sent him to a different state in india for studies with some good cash. he learnt some bad habits and wasted all his money in stupid things and is now basically a failure as he has no skills and is just sitting at home watching tv. my mother keeps taking him as a example as she doesnt want me to fail. I dont know what to do man.