Thanksgiving Break!!

HELLO EVERYONE! I hope everyone is doing okay, I am currently on Thanksgiving break and I'm living my best life. I have been looking forward to a week off of school for a while, and it's finally here. Though, it will creep away from me like it was never here, in only a matter of days. It looms for a week... Then, is gone before it could appear. The entire idea of Thanksgiving break is to take a break and not think about your awful teachers, or the monotonous schoolwork, for an entire week. But, the entire week is trying to ignore thoughts about school, TRYING. I can't help but think about the biggest thing going on in my life. Even though one should take a break, one cannot ignore what they spend most of their time doing. Abd don't even get me started about actual Thanksgiving. The family just fights the whole time or doesn't and pretends that everyone isn't thinking about the same drama. As I have gotten older, I have been more aware of my fighting family members, the snarky comments, the inferences I didn't understand, the people sitting outside the whole time, all of it. Each year I am made more unhappy with the holiday as whole. The more that I realize that my family acts like a group of middle school girls instead of being a family. It could be my grandma's last Thanksgiving. And no one seems to care. Everyone is wrapped up in their own bullshit, so much so that no one has noticed that it has been 2 years since my grandma made her delicious cookies. The ones that I would stand on a stool in the kitchen to help make. That cookie recipe very well could be the last I have of her in only a matter of months, and no one seems to care. I don't know what I'll do if she passes. I'll be lost, completely. And I'll think back to now when no one seems to care. 

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving, be blessed.