fuck dentists. they are satan. (20)

11/25/25

hi, its been a while. not even gonna waste my time on an intro cause this is going to be a long rant, as you can see by the title of what im gonna talk about. 

fuck dentists. within the last few years ive developed a lot of dental anxiety over the dentist due to ONE SINGULAR traumatic experience i had, and now even the smell of entering a dentist office triggers my anxiety to the point of sweating and my heart beating horribly fast, and i shake. 

im sure other people can relate to hating the dentist, but genuinely, dentists are satan. even the hygienists. i had this tooth that had to get a root canal for. they're hard to fail. somehow, there is something wrong with it when i bite down when i chew food specifically, and my dentist doesn't know what's wrong because nothing is being shown as wrong on the x-ray. 

but im in pain. please help me. ive cried about this for the last like 4 days and im sick of going to the dentist. i have to go back to the endodontist (root canal specialist) to see what might be wrong (to get a CAT scan), because obviously nothing should bother me. someone help me. please. im so tired of going to the dentist and every time its even brought up i feel my chest tighten up so bad and i want to cry. even writing this i am having horrible anxiety. 

i am genuinely at my witts fucking end with my teeth. and its just one tooth. not even multiple. thats how severe my anxiety is. this is all over ONE FUCKING TOOTH. ONE. also not to mention it is horribly expensive and i hate that there is so much money involved and oh my god like???? what is wrong with them im sorry but to see that some dental insurances say that certain things like implants arent covered cause they can be considered "cosmetic.' like okay fuck you too insurance companies? 

besides that there have been a lot of issues with this one tooth and i dont want specifically my parents to keep spending money on my fucking teeth issues (well for one its expensive) and 2, its more stressful for me and my parents cause its all i talk about and i cant handle it. i feel bad because i feel like all my issues get shrugged off sometimes but genuinely i have problems and my anxiety is bad ok. jfc. thats all i had to say