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I go to dance lessons 3 times a week for 2 hours so thatā€™s 6 hours a week, itā€™s honestly not that bad except from the fact I have no friends and that sucks, like really bad. I canā€™t quit because my mom said Iā€™ll gain weight and become fat and I canā€™t make friends because I have already told myself everyone hates me and itā€™s been too long for me going there for me to just try make friends. Dance makes me happy, I love dance itā€™s something beautiful. I mean like it is considered art, I also love music so both together makes me feel happy. For context I go slow dance and freestyle disco but I only like the slow dance, I suck at running and have no energy for it. I practice lyrical dance at home because I feel the emotion and the energy put into it, itā€™s so cool. I used to go to gymnastics for 6 years before I quit a year ago because I had the same problem, I had no friends which means I have no motivation. I want to get back into gymnastics but definitely into a different club. The club I went to was definitely the biggest reason why I became such an introvert and hated myself badly. It wasnā€™t only myself making up scenarios in my head because they actually did leave me out every. Single. Time. I want to make friends but me dressing alternately and having problems with my lisp wonā€™t help me. They all wear mainstream clothing which is cute, they are all really pretty girls but I can tell they will make fun of me. One of the girls there found my snap account and saw all my spotlights with all the outfits I felt pretty and confident in and she went up to me and made fun of it, I canā€™t blame her for it i was just upset and I was already un confident about it anyways.Ā
None of my friends want to join dance, Ive begged every single one of them but Iā€™ve learned to just accept that they simply donā€™t want to, no matter how much time they tell me they forget to ask their parents about it. I love dance and probably wonā€™t quit but it still hurts seeing everyone talk with their friends and Iā€™m just standing at the wall trying my hardest not to tear up.Ā
If you have any advice on starting conversations or small talk since dance isnā€™t the only place I find communication hard in then I would love some <3
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Kin
It can be hard making friends I struggled with the same thing for my two first years in college.
I wanna help but I need more info, in that club does everyone hang out together and stuff or is it small groups? because if everyone hangs out together I doubt they are all very close friends so it could be easier for you to integrate it. if there are a lot of small groups it may be a bit harder but even still maybe try to find the small group that is the more welcoming (easier said than done I know bruh).
Also to befriend ppl u can try to bring things that u can share like candies or chewing gums, or if you see someone with something you like (clothing, books anything) maybe complimenting them could help.
After spending lots of time conviced ppl didn't wanna hang out w me because someting was wrong w myself I realized that ppl simply never noticed me. It wasn't hate on their part but just that they didn't know me. also maybe they tgink you do not want to interact so they want to leave you in peace, you never know!
I hope you manage to make friends, have a nice day!!!! <3