My crush on him<3 ( i pray he doesnt see this )

Sometimes it's so frustrating when he doesn't talk to me or when he's dry in text, but of course, people get tired. I just remind myself of that. He's going through a lot, and I should be way more understanding!! He's being so sweet and amazing and doing what he can to show me he's there for me, and if I can't do the same for him, then I am unworthy of him. He's so ajsbdgjhasgdhjasgdjhag i can't anymore. He got me flowers the other day out of the blue, and I did not know how to react because I'm an awkward little bitch💔 I worry that he might not believe when I say I love him, but I do. In a way. He's part of my life now, like, when I wake up I think " Oh my God, he exists and I have a reason to look forward to going to school because I'll see him ayayay " and my mood instantly lifts. He doesn't know how much it means to me that he just exists, the fact he exists in the same timeline as me makes me so happy I could die.