would you?

i look at you.

would you look back?

even if you knew

my heart aches as i start to unpack;

you don't understand, you won't understand

i'm unable to ever be normal.

i'm bound to let myself be constantly sought by happiness,

yet never actually allowing myself to be found.

would you look back? 

even as i'm leaping against my awkward future

even while my legs tremble in fear

even when i messily burst into tears

even when i act like myself, raw

even when i can't keep pretending i'm not as bad as it gets

would you dare to look back?