yearning

Horrible, HORRIBLE Feelings have risen in me, simmering inside me for more than a year now. Why can I not let go? 
i need to get over things. i need to confront other things

i gave him a note telling him about stuff. I don't want to hear an answer from him, but just the thought of him reading it...it's enough. 

its been painful for some time. life is turbulous right now. wish me luck future and past katies!