I see my future and its not bright

I literally don't know what to do after school. like maybe its okay cuz im not even close to college, tho im close to graduating..

Turns out you can like, choose a track to do in senior high and im gonna go for arts and music

I actually really like singing but I haven't rlly sang in front of alot of people before.. I wanna go for musical theatre thoughhh. I can act and sing and I really wanna do this but I dont know if my family will be okay with this decision. 

I'm actually quite scared for college cuz I would probably be alone and I have to figure it all out by myself💔 I'll go abroad but I dont actually have a plan yet

Also planning to probably be a painter as wellllll , Im not that good *yet*, im js gonna keep practicing11!!1!1! 

soo im kinda worried about the part where we have to find colleges n universities to go to

cuz I dont think id be qualified and I have a rlly big fear that all of them will reject meeeee💔 so im just gonna wait until this burden finds my future self again in shs

good luck future self