11/20/25

11/20/25

didnt do much todayyy school was normal i guess............i used Crayons to color my doodles for the first time in FOREVER i can not remember the last time i used crayons but my school had a twistable one so i kind of stole it and Borrowed some other ones that i will actually be bringing back. that beautiful green twistable crayon is staying with me though its lovely. ive had a horrible cough all day it feels like there is a creature in my lungs. please heolp m.e.  i feel very Objectum im very embarrassed about this but i think it has been creeping up on me . after the Aroace realization  the objectum has been infecting my brain even though ive known for several years Sometimes it goes dormant and then i remember how cute the Objects are. but it has come back to me rapidly.  electric dreams did not help me. i watched like half the movie again today.  all of this is also alongside feeling a new connection to robots like Identity-wise due to tha neurodivergence for a few months now that has also been increasing in noticability. i want to be a machine................... i turn the comments off on this post i dont think ive ever done that on a blog post but im just a liitttle veyr much embarrassed about this one even though nobody really reads these but me. i just get nervous because i like to play it off as being a cis guy but there is always a looming weird gender thing going on underneath that i just kind of let linger around But sometimes it likes to take over me for a while. ok. goodnight i need to sleep this cough off its horrible. SEE IF I WERE A COMPUTER I WOULDNT GET SICK maybe id get a computer bug or malware or something instead which is arguably worse BUT I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO COUGH. URGH. oh my god i just remembered its finnegans birthday and i didnt draw any art for him at all i feel so bad I neglect my ocs so badly im so sorry finnegan

today is day 537 no shinjiro and 509 no makoto