Idk 🤷🏽‍♀️

“i keep trying to shine but all i do is burn.”

 totally not a real song, but it sounds like one lol

current mood: misunderstood

current music: paramore  “misery business” blasting way too loud

current vibe: might disappear into my hoodie forever

ugh why does nobody like me… like for real. my own mom doesn’t even like me no matter how hard i try. i swear i could literally just walk into the room and she’d act like i just ruined her whole day by existing.

and it’s not like i get a break from it either. i’m homeschooled, so it’s not like i have a locker to slam or friends to escape to at lunch. it’s just me, my room, my schoolwork, and the same energy of “you’re doing it wrong” 24/7.

i do everything right. i stay out of the way. i keep to myself. i try to make the house feel less like a war zone. and STILL somehow i’m the “problem.” like bruh?? what else do you want from me??

the silence in this house is so loud it’s annoying. i put on my headphones and pretend i’m somewhere else, like one of those emo music videos where the kid stares out the car window like their life is a tragic movie. except i don’t even get the car ride part lmao.

i just want ONE person who actually gets me. one person who doesn’t look at me like i’m dramatic for feeling things. someone who won’t judge me for being the weird homeschooled kid who listens to sad music and overthinks literally everything.

idk. maybe i’m asking too much. maybe this is just who i am right now.whatever. might delete this later before ppl think i’m whining again lol 🙄✨