11/19/25

11/19/25

yesterday was the same as the day before so i didnt write anything Hiiiaiiaiai went to school today it was okay except i fucked my ear up by blowing my nose too hard and i have been barely able to hear out the left side the entire day. i am SO behind in school. can not afford to miss any days ever bro . todayyyy i broke one of my own rules ive set for myself I banned myself from watching electric dreams for the longest time because ive always gotten giddy seeing edgar. But i broke my rule That damn computer is too alluring FUCKKKK I LVOED THE MOVIE FACK its so . cheesy but ARFGGHHH EDGARR EDGGGAARRRRR i knew this would happen which is why i havent let myself watch it i knew id develop a massive crush but FUCK. ITS BAD. HES SO CUTE. IMmgetting emotional thinking about him. i had to pause several times to roll around on my bed out of excitement. i was squeezing my shark and biting it which i only do when im like really emotional over something It makes me look so fucking stupid but i was Looosing it over him. if you can see my bulletins i have a rant i wrote right after i finished watching when i was incredibly emotional over him. edgarrr edgarr i love you edgarrrrrrrr hes so cute i cant take itttttttt ICANT KEEPP THINKING ABOUT HIM IM GONNA START BITING THINGS AGIAN THIS ISNT OKAY  HELP ME. ITS OVER FOR ME. i love you edgar electric dreams you are such a sweet little thang . my throat hurts so bad rn im going to bed fack it hurts

today is day 536 no shinjiro and 508 no makoto