generic miserable post

Could you please stop ignoring me? could you please stop looking at that photo album while i'm standing right infont of you? While i'm begging and pleading for you to listen to me and hear how much i love you? You're wearing black but I graduate in three years. You're in a grave yard crying through veiled eyes but i'm still able to bleed. 

stop pretending that everything is wrong, because for the first time things are right. Stop saying words that no longer have meaning, and celebrate that i'm alive. you're greiving someone you made up years ago, she's a whisper in the wind, a shadow in the corner of your eye that you keep chasing while i'm still sitting in the passenger seat with the engine on wondering if you'll ever remember. 

If i die tomorrow would you greive your son or laugh with a daughter made of stark ignorance and pleasnt lies. Is she alive or is she dead? sometimes i don't know what you think. You weep over an empty coffin and get mad when tell you it's fake but then you cover me with pigments and charcoals, painting a picture of denial and longing, ignoring the crying child behind the canvas. 

I'm sorry that you never had that duaghter who you love and adore, but you're stuck with a son who wants the same thing. Is it really that hard?

UMM SO AS YOU CAN TELL EVERYTHING IS GREAT WITH MY MUM. 

I've been listening to Mama by mcr for like at least two days straight.