Pretty bonk stuff

I thought it would be silly and fun to blog about the things going on in my life, mainly for me and my friends lolz

Okay so, in the second semester of my grade 10th year, i had my English class. In my English class I met this guy, and our assigned seats were next to each other. Every day we would talk a little, rarely doing our work. One day he asked me for my snap, which I gave to him. I was new at my school at the time and thought i was finally making friends. I told my then boyfriend that I had made a new friend and that i was super excited about it. My boyfriend didn’t like that i was making friends with guys (he was very insecure) and told me I shouldn’t be talking to him. I obviously didn’t listen because who is he to tell me who i can and cant be friends with (this was not anything new, he had tried to get me to drop my friends that I had for years when we met because they were guys). Valentine’s Day rolls around, and I posted a picture of me and my boyfriend on my Snapchat story and all that boring stuff. Some time passes and I haven’t really heard from English class guy. He started sitting on the other side of the room and wouldnt talk to me, or even look at me. I found this odd and a little upsetting because I thought he wanted to be friends but i was wrong. The rest of the school year goes by, nothing really happens. I start having problems with my boyfriend and break up with him over the summer. Stupidly, i texted English class guy, but thankfully he never opened them. 

School starts back up and I start seeing him in the halls. I had told my best friend about the year prior and she told me i should talk to him. 

In October i decided to speak to him. I had crazy signs the week leading up to it and decided it was fate. I rehearsed my little speech before i spoke to him, though i dont know if it did any good because i may or may not have blacked out from my nerves. 

It was a Friday. School had just gotten out, and my best friend and i were walking home. I had planned to go to my grandmothers that day, which meant i had to go the opposite way as my friend. We had noticed English class guy was ahead of us, walking the same way (he literally NEVER walks that way). My friend yelled his name which led him to turn around obviously and I turned the other way because i was too scared to talk to him. We kept walking and he kept turning around to look at us. Eventually, i started walking the way to my friends house, not my grandmothers. We made spur of the moment plans for me to go over to her house so i could walk with her and potentially talk to ECG (abbreviating to make my life easier). ECG was standing at the bus stop maybe 7 feet away, and my friend and i were on the phone with our parents to make sure it was okay i came over. The entire time ECG and his friend were looking at us (we were not subtle at all ToT), which I think they were trying to avoid us because then they walked away from the bus stop. It registered to me in that moment that if i didnt speak up, i would have lost my chance. Without realizing, i yelled his name. If i didn’t rehearse what i was going to say to him, i wouldnt remember anything from that encounter. 

Me: did you get my messages over the summer?

ECG: no? You messaged me during the summer?

Me: okay thank god, i was obliterated when i texted you and i was hoping you didnt see them because i didnt want to blow any future chances, and i was wondering if i could get your snap again?

ECG: absolutely

After i got his snap we both walked away, but not before he could smile at me and told me he would see me later. 

Holy cow i didn’t realize how long this was. I have so much more to add but its past my bedtime lolz