[03] when will i feel rested enough?

another bad day.

woke up awfully early after struggling to sleep almost the entire night. my dad was already scolding me for something after he woke up, but i dont remember what it was. is my memory getting worse...?

i was supposed to go to M's house tomorrow. to study and who knows what else we could get up to. but guess what? cancelled. because one of our friends, L, started going to the gym with him. she wasnt able to today, so she told him they should go tomorrow and wednesday. and when he told her that i was supposed to go to his, she just told us to do that next week instead and he went with it. it made me a bit upset, especially since he's been promising me that i would go over to his for months now. but... its whatever. im probably being overdramatic, right?

there was a football game at school today. every class was reduced 10 minutes to make time for the game, so that was nice. it was rainy during most of school day too. i love the rain, but we werent able to sit comfortably during the game because the grass was soaked.

i dont think there was anything else interesting enough to write about. i got home a little later than usual since my van? is that what its called? arrived late. i ate lunch and went straight to bed. i was hoping to get at least one text message from someone, but i woke up not even an hour ago and there was nothing.

i slept for, what, 4-5 hours?

im still exhausted. i dont feel rested at all.

on the good side, im going on vacation this week. i hope im able to get a break from everything, although it will be just me and my parents. sometimes theyre a pain in the ass, my mom especially. i hope it doesnt become unbearable. i just want a break.