FEELINGS? HOW?!

I'm gonna sob bruh I never thought I would like ANYONE

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For context, I take a theatre class in High School, and in that class there's this guy. For privacy reasons, I'll call him breadcrumb (my friend's stupid ahh suggestion).

We're both in the same grade, and we're pretty good friends. However, my stupid heart can't keep it's pants on and so I slowly developed feelings for him.

So the weird part about this is that breadcrumb and I don't even talk like that, we just chat like friends do. I mean yeah, I know my feelings can come from his looks and personality— and he is cute, don't get me wrong— but we haven't had ONE chat where we talked about our romantic ideals.

Even though we haven't had conversations like that, I'm 90% sure that he doesn't feel the same way about me. The main reason is because he is straight, and he knows I'm genderfluid. Yes, sometimes I use feminine terms, and AFAB, but in the back of my mind, something keeps telling me that I'm not the one for him.

What do I DOOOO:((

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EDIT: Also I literally draw gay roblox characters. whos staight WATER POLO PLAYING ASH is gonna wanna date that