finals season sadness

this past month has been non-stop schoolwork for me. my assignment list has never been empty and im usually on campus till the last bus leaves. 

i have 2 tests and a presentation coming up this week. its not that i think i cant succeed, but i know i will have to sacrifice a lot of time. ive lost my motivation and the only thing keeping me going is habit. i announced a hiatus for my website my only hope is that i will be able to pursure my hobbies during winter break. 

whats really making it worse is a sudden wave of sadness that started last week. I dont have depression but i would describe it as a depressed feeling. I dread getting up in the morning and it takes me an hour to get out of bed. im closing myself off from my friends and spending time with them feels different. im constantly remembering cringe/bad things i did from distant memories. worst of all, the hobbies that i was talking about earlier dont bring me joy anymore. working on my website and drawing doesnt feel good right now. idk i just feel pretty empty. this has never happened to me before so i dont know how to deal with it. T_T

the only thing that makes me feel somewhat normal is locking in. my brain forgets all the bad stuff when im working on schoolwork or studying. im only writing this so i will know what to tell my therapist on monday. sorry for the depressing entry, im sure ill be back to my normal self in december.