im so happy

hey, i know it's been a minute, but i didn't really feel like blogging this week. until today, that is. 

so i think i told you in the last blog that i had my second date with eric planned for today. if i didn't mention that, well, i just did now! we went to the arcade and just hung out. we talked for hours. at some point i think we stopped playing games. we really click, you know? i feel like we kinda get each other, even though he's so different from me, and from all the guys i've been with in the past. he's sweet and genuine and actually smart and doesn't just wanna touch me all the time. 

sorry, i kinda got off track. anyway, on our first date, we almost kissed, but i froze up and flinched away. i was so mad at myself. (i still sort of am.) but this time, i didn't run. we actually kissed. my lips touched his lips. fully. god, i sound like a preppy rich girl. that's what happens when your friends force you to watch a bunch of valley girl movies as a child. 

but anyway, we kissed and it was magical. he was all flustered after but tried to play it cool; it was so funny and i so called him out. he was smiling so much and i definitely was too. we probably looked like a pair of idiots. 

but the kiss isn't the best part. no, it's not even close. when we were standing on my shitty front porch in the stupid garden lantern light, he asked me to be his girlfriend. he was blushing and shaking like a wet leaf. i ofc said yes and he literally sighed in relief. he said he was nervous i'd say no. like, i couldn't even if i wanted to. 

i can't believe it was at my house, in my front yard. he must be crazy to want to date me after both meeting my mother and seeing my shitty house. but, hey, i'm okay with crazy. ;) 

so yeah, today was pretty great. 

11/14/1986