Committing :p

Keep thinking back about our old conversations.. How i was so fucking naive and didn't get to say "i love you" for the last time. I dont wanna commit. I dont wanna see others hurt. but i wanna die as well. Too bad im too much of a scared little bitch to even do so im sorry moeka. I wish i did better. Even ontop of that my mom and her bf arguing. I just want a father and mother who will love me for once. I want validation i am a attention seeker i love attention please give me attention. I dont wanna die but i wanna die but i dont. Why cant i make up my mind. Why does everything hurt. Why am i like this. Why am i such a burden. Either way dead or alive im always hurting somebody. I wish i was never born. I wish i never caused burdens.

Imma. Go commit. Tonight that way i wont hurt anybody anymore

(Edit: my friend convince me to not do it