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Does anyone else wish they were a guy? Like really badly? But only sometimes? Help a sista out ova here. I wish I were a guy. I mean, like, I just wish I were a guy. It's terrible. I'll see cute couples in the store and wish I were the guy. I'll see a hot guy and think nothing of it, and then I pretend I'm a dude for a second, and I'm like, "yeah, I'd let him hit." I keep having weird dreams about having a dong and thinking like, "yeah, this is the shit." It's weird because I love women's fashion, and I'm pretty fem, yknow? I mean, I'd love to dress more masculine, but it doesn't matter really, no matter what I wear, I'm a bootylicious plus-size babe. Like, good luck trying to even dress like a guy when you have double D's. I used to wear solely sports bras until I went to college, and I literally did that stupid trope where the girl accidentally forgets she has a great rack. Sometimes it bothers me so much that I'm not a bisexual man. Like holy shit, I wish I could kiss a guy and get an erection. Or like, actually want to engage with people in that sort of way. Why am I typing this out? Idk. It's odd, because like normally I don't give a shit. I just assume I'm an asexual loser until I start thinking about my love life. Like fuck I could be cuddling a guy and we'd hold hands and kiss and stuff. What am I saying? I'm not a guy. I probably won't be a guy. Not because I'm transphobic (Is it transphobic to be an egg? Is egg still a kosher term?) But because I just think it's a lot of work just for a dong lol. Plus, I don't want to think about being a guy and having to use men's bathrooms or be seen as a threat by women or be isolated from my family who won't accept me. Hell, I don't even want to stop being a girl, really. Idk. I guess in some perfect world... I'd maybe be trans? Idk, in a truly perfect world, we would all have two bodies that we could switch between, so I could be a girl and a guy when I wanted.
Idk, I'll delete this later. If anyone has any advice, that'd be cool. I really hope my brother doesn't see this one lol but I doubt it.
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CHAIN
seems very suspiciously Egg to me.
at the end of the day, how you feel about your gender, how you want to present, is all up to you. sometimes labels are helpful, sometimes they just get in the way because none of them really fit how you feel and they leave you feeling even more lost. i think everybody is TOO obsessed with labels. i don't think we need to invent a marker for every single expression of gender or way of being attracted (or not) to people. i think people need to get more comfortable exploring their identity without having a word to put to it, because in the end, feeling the need to fit in somewhere with some niche label only puts up walls and makes everything more confusing.
just set out to find yourself first, and if you find a label that fits, awesome. if not, you're still just as valid as anyone else in the community. you know? just be yourself, etc. have fun with it. that's the best advice i can give.
Yeah, lowkey egg haha. Very egg. I feel a little behind on the whole "finding yourself" thing because most of my friends had at least mostly figured out their sexuality and gender by the time we started Uni. I haven't really had the time or space to do that since I ended up dropping out and moving cross-country in my second semester to pay off my debts. I guess I should've seen this coming, idk, even when I was a kid, I had a lot of these sentiments (I hated being a girl until I was like, 11 lol.) I'm really not sure where to start. Also, I don't know if I can say I was sober writing this because I technically had (have?) a concussion. Okay, well, thank you for your advice! I'm a little embarrassed I said this much ahaha.
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There are alot of lables that are cool and super gender fucky like bigender or genderfluid look into those
I'm gonna have to do this. I guess I never really gave a label much thought. I think I'm looking at this the wrong way. Idk maybe it's not an issue to be solved, but like... a thing to be... thinged?
by M, but sleepy; ; Report
EVERYTHING-AT-THE-END
There are alot of lables that are cool and super gender fucky like bigender or genderfluid look into those