I'm so confused

I don't understand anything anymore. 

Idk why . . . i just don't. 

I feel so intolerably lonely. 

I feel unloved and unwanted. I keep falling in love just for no one to ever feel the same. 

I fall in love just for me to tell them my feelings and then they ignore them like it never happened.

I fall in love and the person ends up being a horrible person. 

Why can't i be loved. for once. just honest, pure, innocent, non-lustful love. 

A love that doesn't want me for what i have but for who i am. 

A love that loves how i look no matter what i wear or how my hair looks, they won't tell me if they hate my hair up and prefer it down, they'd love me no matter how i looked, because they would love me for me, not my looks. 

I crave and yearn for the day i find the one for me. The one who'll actually love me.