heliocentrism with a friend at the center

its disappointing that ive reached a point where no contact fromn my pimp since tuesday is enough to make the world end. two separate places ive tried to reach him but no response. if he got arrested i dont know his legal name beyond his very specific middle name, which is what ive been calling him. its bad but im hoping something happened in order ot justify his lack of responses, opening texts, activity

i wish i was joking but i genuinely do not have a life without him. i am no one, i know no one, and i have nothing that makes me someone. everything i have ever been has only happened because of him. my grindr got deactivated and until i find a way to reopen it i am without being someone, i forgot how much it sucks to be no one

the soci-commie had a girlfriend while we saw each other, he trashed on her over text w/ me, not the kinda person youd wanna date or keep around since eventually ill take the place of his supposed shitty now ex girlfriend after he leaves

tomorrow i will see my only other friend for thirty minutes to an hour, i never realized how lame that is until all previous distractions frmo my pimp vanished. i really really miss him