tonight's episode on the confessions of a virgin...

fuckin seriously...does anybody else feel like they are the same age they were five years ago? or technically, lost two years of mental age because of the forced pause from covid-19 in 2020-21? maybe it was due to everything PHYSICALLY pausing--and it being so sudden at that, that it feels like this? or maybe im just retarded. who really knows?

for some reason i still feel like the fresh teenager i was when everything hit. coming out of covid i was in my junior year of hs and i didn't think of it much at the time, but i felt like my perception of time simply stopped. i'm 20 now, and i feel like i shouldn't feel like i'm at the point i'm at. like an episode or plot of a movie where the kid wishes they could be an adult for a day and its just them in a goddamn business suit and top hat. sheep in wolf's clothing but i (we. if you can relate) ain't no sheep? i sit and think about it and it makes me weirdly upset and irritable, as if time was taken away from me but i have nothing to direct my frustration to...you just gotta to move on.

anybody else? is it a generational thing if you've experienced this in such a pivotal growth time?

yes this is my stupid little blog name because i like it. estoy muy authentica. bitch (jesse from breaking bad tone)