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Hello lads!
It's pretty annoying to play the horn. I am obviously in love with the instrument, but I just hate it when I cannot play properly. I endured hours of countless playing, but even though progress is pretty fragile, for the last 3 months, I was doing great! But just 1 week of pure sickness fucked a lot of stuff up. I have to stay late in school again.
Some people are saying that it's pretty normal for my age, to head back to basics, too, or just generally being 16. It's fascinating how schizoid my instrument is. I hope I can recover pretty well. My repertoire is pretty hard, but not as hard as my colleagues so I do feel a little bad.
It's very hard to live when your teacher's, well, old. He's probably one of the greatest teachers ever, but I do suffer from even the smallest mistakes. I think I might need some extra help, but he just says the same things over, practice every day.
Maybe that's the way, no? I'm unsure, but I guess I'll go back to my routine of staying late at school.
I fucking hate how some people don't even need to practice at all, like they're just feeding off their raw talent while I work my ass off. Maybe I'm not talented, and forcing these things
I cannot imagine what I would do without my instrument. I'm not good at anything except my instrument, literally..
It's pretty scary. People say there's so much potential in me, but I still haven't figured out how to get around these problems yet.
Anyway, I hope you have some good advice or reassurance. I'm feeling pretty down these days. Hope I can always stay a hornist. A good one
Act I - Horn Problems
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shalomeslime
it is normal, honestly! not even for people your age, though, just all around--especially with instruments. they're tricky to learn, and no matter which one you pick up, it can feel like as soon as you stop practicing, you're out of luck... i felt that myself a little bit back in band. i played the tuba and the trombone. hell, half the time with the trombone i couldn't remember any of the positions, so i played everything by ear.
some people have natural talent for anything, certainly. it can be very discouraging to see, but i implore you... don't focus on it! envy will be the death of whatever you try to do, especially something you really have to work for. you're not forcing anything at all! this just takes time. but, if you really feel like something might not be understandable, don't be afraid to bring it up to your teacher. there's bound to be something he can do... i hope.
i haven't heard your playing, but i'm sure with some persistence, you'll make a great hornist. just stay vigilant, and stay patient.
Thank you for the wisdom, my friend. I hope I can be better soon.
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of course. good luck out there.
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harley
Hoping you get better soon, I totally understand the feeling of not being enough since i repeated 8th grade. It was my teachers fault but the trauma she left on me still lingers. I really think you play great and can achieve anything if you put your mind to it! 10 p.m. school gng :)
Thank you gng!!
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