DID I FUMBLE HIM?? (I CAN PULL HUZZ??) (not clickbait)

uh hey!!

ok so last blog post I briefly mentioned that a part of the reason why I wasn't on spacehey much was bc I had a social life and I was busy and I briefly mentioned a guy. WELL THIS IS THE POST WHERE I YAP ABOUT HIM because I need to keep a record of events. 

for context: I have the game of an actual fucking loser I cannot talk to guys to save me. and this guy from some reason is actually worthy to yap about bc of all the drama it brings. 

aight so I wont namedrop him but for the sake of this blog he's gonna be called gingersnap (I wonder why???)

ok so I actually been know gingersnap since like freshman year bc we shared some classes but back then I ain't speak for shit and I was a npc so we never spoke to each other. then he transferred and I forgot ab him. 

UNTIL JUNIOR YEAR THAT IS!!

in junior year I befriended two ppl (code names will be kat and raccoon). They turned out to be friend with gingersnap and one day after school, I was gonna hang w kat and raccoon. gingersnap happened to be around and he ended up joining us. we went to raccoon's house. We were all watching BNA and then raccoon and kat both fell asleep so i was left w gingersnap. It was awkward since i got quiet bc i aint know him like that but then we started talking and eventually put on cyberpunk bc he recommended it 2 me. 

The rest of the hangout went smooth and i bonded w gingersnap a bit. Most notable moment was when we were alone together again and he wanted to see if he could lift me (bc im fat and he weightlifts). I gave him permission to do so bc i was curious (spoil alert: hes strong as hell he could lift me).

I didnt like him like that then but my impression of him was that he was cool but slightly off. I ALSO had a crush on someone else back then. This is important to note and will come back later. 

I didnt speak w him for awhile and so the next time i saw him was to see the minecraft movie w my friends and their larger fg which hes in. he lwk pmo during that hang out bc bro then asked out 2 girls in front of me to get me jealous (it didnt work bc he got rejected by both and it made me just turned off). Also bc he just acted like an ass. But then he was still tryna lift me again. I allowed it bc idk. Except my crush saw me and i got embarrassed. 

After that movie hangout, it was wraps for me. He kept bringing me up to his friends and kept tryna get kat to hook him up w me. I alr know that most of kat and raccoon’s friends are either neutral/dont rlly like me like that and I KNEW bc im super quiet and fat and overall the LAST PERSON youd have a crush on they prolly was giving him hell. Ngl it was so odd bc ive never had a guy like me LIKE THIS before so i found it odd and creepy. Esp because i had rejected him 3 times at this point too. I ALSO found out that w his last gf, he had passed the phone around and had the fg send shit to her. AND i learned he kinda saw women in a demeaning way and was described to me as ‘evil’ by both kat and raccoon. Kat also mentioned how she wasnt sure of his intentions w me so i got like scared. I trust their advice since theyve known him for YEARS. 

So i rejected him at the time through kat. Ngl i was pretty harsh, at least for me. We didn’t speak after that. At the time: I didn’t regret it.

Then it was September. 

One day I randomly find out that he liked one of my old IG posts. Mind you I never gave him my IG even when he asked. So I only knew it had to be ONE person: Kat. I asked her and she said she gave it to him because they were talking about panty and stocking and she said I drew like the show. It was then where she asked me if I wanted to try w him again and I said I’d think about it. But I was leaning yes. 

Then it was Dia de Los Muertos. My club hosted a dinner at school and guess who was there: him. I was lowkey not that surprised but it still took me off guard. And yet he still was able to greet me like we were cool. Seemed he took that rejection well. The whole event he was w his friends so I didn’t wanna bother. But when I was walking home I saw him waiting for the bus and talked to him. And we talked like nothing ever happened. It was so surreal. He was still as charming as when I first met him. We yapped about our interests and I found out he also read The Maxx and he’s like the only person I’ve met whose read it IRL. He’s so based guys!! And lwk he got character development, I realized he’s just a guy like how I’m just a girl. We’re both humans ya know?  And we’re now on good terms and I got his instagram. He followed me back so quick guys!! And ngl he was bad as hell when I saw him again. And he hugged me goodbye and his cologne was so yummy smelling.

Recently I hung out w him on Halloween w that friend group too. He liked my costume. And uh he hugged me again when I saw him. He went as Obito from Naruto. He knows a lot of ball (I forgot to say that.) I haven’t spoken to him on IG and I wanna but idk what to say. 

But yeah hopefully I don’t fumble again.