14:20 digital diary

the classes ended earlier again yaaay. but i don’t even know honestly if it’s better like that because i’ll have to spend time with my parents instead. i’m kinda worried to be honest. the therapy session was fine. the therapist complimented my plushie! yesterday evening i was doing some crafts for it and she complicated them as well. and to be honest it was so entertaining like omg i  need more ideas like this. i’m still really lonely. like my f/p is busy and so am i but im so lonelyyy without them. i feel so sick both physically and mentally but i try my best to distract myself. im so tired of this constant nausea because of all the anxiety and all the triggers. at least i started answering better to my bestie and it seems like i made a new online friend! besides everything that keeps complicating my life even my therapist noticed that i make a huge progress. i try not to self sabotage. it’s sooo hard but i try to repeat myself that if im letting others humiliate me like that then i have the right not to do that by myself. i also continue listening to creature feature and now i even have favourite songs! uhm what else. i guess i failed my test. but i guess i’ll get a mark that will be at least close to the needed one. the bus ride is ending soon so i guess i’ll just be walking around for now