9:20 digital diary

oh all of this sucks since the very morning. i didn’t sleep well. again. i fell asleep on the train and almost missed my bus lol. my head hurts. my body hurts. my left leg hurts so bad that this morning i didn’t walk as much as i should have walked because this pain gets unbearable. i don’t understand shit about math and i’m having test soon. and also today im having another test and ive learnt things a bit but it’s never enough. i’m also really lonely like im holding back tears so hard right now. at least my dear f/p is being sweet to me. but im still too lonely. like to be honest it’s mostly void but i know that i wont fulfill it so i try to persuade myself that its just loneliness because at least sometimes i can distract myself from that. yeah it kinda suck but its the best strategy that i have. and today i won’t be able to leave earlier. i’ll have to see my therapist, then i’ll have to see a doctor and stuff. i will get home kinda late and the only thing that i still hope for is that i will be able to fall asleep earlier. after this class i will try harder and hopefully i will walk more during the break.