Boredom

I hate being bored, it makes me unbearable. It makes me want to skin myself, it makes me impulsive and annoying. It makes me angry how much I like it when life is hard and scary, I want peace. Not boredom. I hate it. I hate how loud and unbothered I get. I just hate it so much. And this boredom makes me mentally exhausted yet physically I'm energized to be loud and annoying. And I HATE IT.