Life update (2)

Hii

It's been a while since the last time I decided to open up spacehey again. I'm doing somewhat okay. I turned 17, yippee.. 

I'm currently a junior, very scary. I'm not failing, mainly Bs in school, so yay! I could probably get my license by the end of the month. 

I honestly haven't done much. I mean at this current moment I haven't done much. I went to japan during the summer for a summer abroad program which was honestly the happiest I've been this entire year. I saw so much shit I never thought I'd see (good and bad). I made alot of friends which I happy about considered my wackass social skills.

Even now I have alot of friends at school now. If anyone was wondering that guy that I was obsessed with back in like April or May. I gave up on him. Why? I don't know. I felt like I creeped him out, and also another girl seemed to be interested in him, and she was doing so much better at talking to him then I was, so I just decided to give up. It was probably for the best. 

Alot of drama (it was actually quite minor)started near the end of my sophomore year, I dont know how to exactly describe it, but I started to develop a crush on someone due to it, but I forced myself to stop because I felt like if I decided to pursue anything it would go immediately downhill. 

Despite all that it's been going somewhat great. Like I feel if anyone else was in my shoes they'd be happy, but I can't. I can't feel happy. I havent been able to feel truly happy about anything till after my trip. Once I came back I was sent back into reality where I had to deal with my family's bullshit and other people's bullshit, and just the state of the country's bullshit. Even though I honestly would have nothing to complain about and life is going as good as it can. I cant feel happy about it. Maybe its just the yearly fall/winter depression kicking in, but idk.

So, here's my current life update for now. I might try to do this as often as I can cause , like I feel it's nice being able to share this all out.