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4 days ago I officially hit 6 months sh free, in 11 days I will hit 200 days free from sh. nobody knows, not my friends, nor my family, honestly even I forgot about it. it's a big deal I know that, it took over my life for close to six years and will likely continue to do so, but after so long the self destruction just becomes normal. I kinda wish I was happier or more proud of it, I wish someone would tell me they were proud of me.
I think my ideal person would be someone who could read my mind, I often has fantasies of confessing everything, of letting another person experience my thoughts unfiltered. I talk a lot, but I think a lot more, sometimes the words don't come out right. if someone could read my mind it would be much easier. I think I would like that.
anyways, good job me, I guess
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shalomeslime
it takes a whole lot to be able to pull yourself away from something like that. i'm really happy to hear you managed it. that takes a whole lot of real strength there!
and hey, even i kind of understand how the second half feels. sometimes i wonder if what i'm actually saying to somebody is falling apart into gibberish. i wish some things were just easier to say...
you've gone this far, right? keep it up! i believe in you.
thank you, and yeah I agree a lot of my thoughts can't be turned into words. its like trying to describe a photograph, you can only do so much without actually seeing it
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yeah! really good way of putting it
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Rocco
We all need to be our own cheerleader. It's nice when others recognize us, but that's all just extra. Good job
yeah, youre right, thank you :)
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Charlie-adhd
Hry! Its pretty cool that you a free from... this. I know firsthand what it is and how hard it can be to renounce it... Good to know that you're holding on, stranger. Good luck further!