Yeah… ._.

i think i’m like… really gay.

like not “haha i like boys sometimes” gay

more like

“i see a pretty boy and my soul leaves my body like a Victorian daughter fainting into silk sheets” gay.

i’ve been pretending it’s complicated

but it’s not.

i like boys.

a lot.

like yeah girls are cool and pretty and i respect them deeply

but if a boy with nice hands and tired eyes looks at me for more than 0.3 seconds

i’m done for.

i’m writing poems.

i’m kicking my feet.

i’m imagining a whole life.

and don’t even get me started on Erik because that’s… yeah.

that’s a different level of “oh god.”

like “i would ruin my sleep schedule for you and not complain” level

which is basically marriage.

i don’t know.

i just had the thought today like

“wow. yeah. i really don’t think this is a phase.”

and then i laughed

because like

have you seen me??

anyways.

hi.

i’m very gay.

carry on.