Overbearing Dichotomy

Overbearing
emotions and decisions
mistakes and apathy
i feel so much
but so little at the same time
im so motivated
but not at all
i get things done
but somehow i also dont

my mind is like
a complex whirl
of happiness
and sorrow
of drive
and emptiness

it's this strange dichotomy between motivation and apathy

--> wrote this the other night... i usually post my emo shit on dreamwidth but i want to post on here more! so! idk!