Idk another vent about screens because im a spoiled toddler with nothing else to complain about

(Warning vent! Tw for the most tame sh youve heard of)

My dad's out of the state rn and for some reasons took off all of our scream time limits (for ref its usually four hours of screen time but we can only use it during 8:00 am-5:30 sun-thursday and four hours 8:00-9:00) were not saposed to have out screens in our room or upstairs at al and my mom says regularly that individual screens are the worst thing to happen to our house.

And like she right but my dumbass brain still panics everytime she says that because im a screen addict.

Anyway I never really bother trying to regulate my screen time when I dont have my limits on becuase its like a treat and it that they'll be back eventually and probably more strick with some new rule well ignore (if me and my twin were extra bad at hiding it

Anyway long winded way if saying my mom came into my room found my sister on her phone while I was in tne bathroom, was mad because it's two hours past when we were saposed to be asleep wnd took our phones and for some reason I started having a conversation with myself in my head (which I hate doing) and I got frustrated and hit the heel of my hand against my head like some stupid alarm clock i hardly even mention to and now my head really hurts which is the first time it's actually hurt for longer than a second.

I fucking hate that im doing what probably counts as self harm but for no reason, I feel completely out of control in my life even though thats not even fucking true, I've spent this whole post complaining about my parents as if there not literally the nicest and spoil me, I hate that im typing this down on my fucking tablet and am probably going to find some random video to listen to while k fall asleep because clearly I cant be trusted to even think without kissing myself off.

Idk this was really aimless idk why I even do this, I keep thinking im gonna show this to my therapist but I think id rather die than admit to a grown woman (whose a malenial) that im blogging and am to embarrassed to admit to the sh because its pathetic and bad for me and I know that. Again I mean self harm but like just hitting myself in the head na ditch usually never even really hurts.

Idk i might delit this cuz wtf am i on