Gender issue

Anyone else wish they were a boy, but at the same time not? Like, I want to be a boy because I don’t have to deal with periods, girl things, and the nightmare of one day having to give birth to literal demons (children). But I don’t want to be a boy because everyone will except me to act masculine and what if I can’t? Also most of the time boys are the ones to have to confess their feelings to girls/boys, and if a girl does it, it’s considered weird. Idk, I just wish I could be physically genderless or gender fluid so I can actually control situations that require a boy or girl. is it just me? 😭😐