November 10 2025

I haven’t wrote one of these in a while but like I just had a really fun week but now I’m wondering why I did and I’m struggling to justify the fact that I enjoyed life and it’s bringing me great distress and I wish I didn’t feel like I need Justification or to earn the right to enjoy life but trying not to think about it is hard and I wish i could break this mindset cause I do not enjoy this at all and don’t know what to do about it I just feel stuck and shitty right now and everything in my life just seems so complicated and I’m exhausted