i dont wanna

I have those thoughts but I would never do it.

If I die, I won't happy or sad. Honestly depends on how I go. 

If I'm drowning, I don't want some little kid in the ocean finding my body 

drifting onto shore.

I want the kid to be happy and make a sandcastle 

and for my dead body to destroy it and for the kid to be traumatized

because I could not save myself?

That is not fun.

And for my neck to experience rope burn? 

But Lincoln Peirce is still making comics

and songs are being made

and played and learned and written and prefo