03/09-11-2025 diary

Hello world !

So, from today(2025-11-09) i decided to start weekly diaries or just write about my self. I started to feel kind of lonley and lost again. Maybe i will find some people who will retale to some stuff idk.

Note: if you see a star(*) in a text, scroll down to see extra, important context.

Monday: Holliday week started, didn't had to go to school, i was mostly sitting on my pc and speedcubing. I got an email about organizing a competition* and i was excited. Finally i had a chance to serius people aboutg serius topics.

Tuesday: I had to go to acting rehearsal, since there is a tradition in my schoo, that every year 11th graders make an acting or whatever. And out of like 50 people that had to show up, only +-20 did, so there wasn't much that we could do. After that i went to talk about the venue, where i could host a competition. the talk with a manager. And basically she said that im not old enought to host anything, BUT she asked delegate contacts so that she could talk about it. I was stressed, but i knew there was hope.

Wensday: oh my God this day sucked. In the morning I check group chat to see that the rehearsal won't happen. I didn't really care about it since im not playing a big role and i can improvise on the spot. When my dad came for lunch he asked my if i could paint some planks since im free today, i said "yeah sure, either way i have nothing to do". Before he dropped me of, he said "call me so that i could drive you back home". After i was done, i called my dad for 30 MINUTES and he didn't answer. It wouldn't be a big problem, since i like walking alot, but i had a dog. I searched for theleech for like another 30 mins, and as soon as i left, my dad messed my saying "i'm free, i can get you home". I was pissed and for some reason I said "no, i will walk my way back"(looking back i should have asked my dad to drive me back).

Thursday: There was again rehearsal, and to noones surprise, there were only +-20 people again. Went to talk about the venue again with the manager, met her at the staircace and she said "I can't talk rn, going to a funeral". Probably the worst timing ever in my life lol.

Friday: Once again, there was a rehearsal. But this time, i got some crazy news: my classmate, who is the manager's, whit whoom i was talking, son, told me, that she thinks I an the biggest retard on the planet for not knowing the basic, organizing rule(i must be >18). But other than that it was a boring, yes stresfull day. also, I remembered that this wesite exists, so i started being active once again.

Saturday & Sunday: Eat, sleep, cube, repeat.

Context to some info:

monday*:

for like 2 or 3 months i really wanted to host a speedcubing competition, but i couldn't force my self to talk with managers if they could give me the venue.