11/7/25

11/7/25

SOOO SORRY FOR MISSING 2 DAYS LITERALLY NOTHING HAPPENED AND I  DIDNT FEEL LIKE POSTING BOTH DAYS IM SORRAYYYYY. today i did not go to school because I Did not Feel like it. i went to the doctor today and told him all my evil fucking symptoms and told him i think its pots and he made me do a test where i just laid down and got my vitals, sat up and got my vitals, and then stood and got my vitals. and he told me it isnt pots but i DONT TRUST HIM!!! because i got like a good ass minute to stand slowly and stuff, so my heartrate didnt really increase much. but in my daily life i stand up really fast during school and stuff and then my heart pounds!!!! also it wasnt the official test its supposed to be a tilt table But he was like Yeah no its not pots! even though i dont believe it. But that means no elevator permissions still cuz i dont have an official diagnosis for anything wrong qith me. it felt shitty highkey because im lookinf for some kind of explanation to why my body feels broken... i just want a reason for why i cant function !! because it feels like im not valid in my declining physical abilities because theres nothing actually wrong with me even rhough i feel like there is. All i got told was to eat better and sleep better and its probably anxiety like fucking always -_- my dad also doesnt believe my doctors ruling out of pots but he still was telling me its probably just hormones and its just how being a teenager is I was like Were you unable to go up stairs as a teenager too.   ok i didnt say that but whatever i thought it . :( i just want to feel normal WUATEVER WJATEVER PITY PARTY OVER i playued with arcus charlie and my brother I REALLY WANT A SHEDLETSKY AVATAR my avatar is 7n7 rn but i have robux left over from it and i really want a shed avatar too I might. buy .........hm. Also. in the past few days i have developed a fascination with bunnies. i think they are very gute i love them . ok gn

today is day 524 no shinjiro and 496 no makoto