i hate some people at my job

this blog is pretty straight forward lol. i absolutely despise someone at my job. full passion. no doubt. from the bottom of my heart. 

i've recently gotten a new job in the hospitality industry when my previous job had been at retail. therefore, my experience is in customer service, not hospitality. yet, they are adamant about training me in the cooking side of things. sure, that's fine, i don't care, but this one guy constantly picks on me and swears at me despite me only working there for about ... maybe a little over two weeks now. again, my customer service is fine and i'm often put in the public eye if i'm not cooking. however, as i've said, i'm still learning the rules and how to go about and this is the third time the same two-year "professional" has had issues with me. in fact, from what i'm hearing many have issues with him due to his attitude and he has even started full-on arguments with co-workers.

today had been horrible, absolutely horrible. i was stuck with him for about four hours (until he left to cover another position) where he would yell at me and even swear at me despite me doing my job. one of my managers consistently tells me i do well, but my issue is confidence. him consistently yelling and swearing at me does not help with my confidence, but instead sends me into panic and spiral mode where my body goes into autopilot and my brain starts to detach from my surroundings. maybe i'm just soft, but tonight's shift was dreadful and i nearly had a mental breakdown. when he left, i found out i was coping much better and i actually could do my job. 

my legs felt like jelly and my heart was pounding against my rib cage, I remember snapping at him at one point but it's blurry so i don't really remember what happened. oh well. i have a shift with him tomorrow too. i'm not looking forward to it. 

his attitude is really affecting my job performance and killing my confidence to the point where I am consistently doubting myself. again, maybe i'm the wrong.