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i hardly ever use this but how do u even possibly move on from someone who was the center of your life. like at one point in time i was only living for him so it's like now who even am i and what do i do. It already been a month and i still feel like this is temporary and one day he will want me the same way i want him. my heart yearns to be with him or even just one with him. i wish that me and him could just be together just me and him forever and even now if he told me to die i would. i would do anything for him to be obsessed with me like i am with him and i know our breakup was for the best for him but i just genuinely feel like i have no purpose and the only thing i think about is him. we were together for almost 2 years and he WAS me; he was everything in my life i didn't even have my own i just wanted him so bad i wanted to swallow him whole. like even me now i can't help but think I'd rather him be miserable with me then happy somewhere else and odvi i know this is wrong and that's why i let him go but even now all i want is to hear his voice one more time. i constantly read through our old texts and messages and listen to any recordings i have of him. i can't stop myself from checking his socials and i feel so jealous that he is so happy with everything, it makes me question if i was really holding him back. i keep trying to get over it with my two friends but littery everything reminds me of him and the only reason im so attached to them is because i see him in them. im grasping to anyone who feels like him or sounds like him or even looks like him. i feel so crazy and finding out he finds other people attractive is like the worst thing ever because i feel disgusted looking at everyone else and can only see myself with him. i just want to like lock him in a cage and keep him with only me but i could also never do that because i love him to much to see him unhappy. part of me wants him to come back but the other part of me knows i make him miserable and that i will never be the person he wants. anyways KMS GUYS X_X !! will i ever move on?? who knows but atleast i can hold on to everything he left with me.